un-frazzling

today my dad asked me over and over again, "what is wrong, honey?"

i could only respond, "i am frazzled."

i really don't know what is frazzled. several weeks ago, we flew to nyc to get away for a long weekend (a surpirse from matt for my birthday). we just spent the past 2 holiday weeks thoroughly enjoying our family and friends. we are healthy, as is everyone we love. we have a lovely home and a crazy dog that is calming down, finally. we live 2 blocks away from our work, which conveniences us to run home to use the restroom, if we want. we live anywhere from a 1 block to 6 block radius to the majority of our family members. did i mention that i married my childhood friend and soul mate 7 months ago? everything in our life is really alittle too good to be true.

when i am frazzled, the thing that brings me back is to do something alone. so, i just sent matt to a movie and then to the airport to pick up his brother from india. i decided to stay home alone to take a quick night nap. (i must be tired? i never do that?) i just woke up and heated up a smorgesborg of leftovers from our new year's eve party. then, i thought, to un-frazzle - - maybe i would start a journal in the same journal that i never completely filled 18 years ago. (i just found it upstairs last week in a box of stuff...). instead, i'll attempt a blog. it might only last several sessions. i never know.

snapfish is aggravatingly slow lately. maybe i can share pics on this instead. where is the spell check on this thing?
i'm just realizing as i type what could be frazzling me. i am so fortunate to go to work everyday with a father, brother, a sister, 3 brother-in-laws, one of my best friends, and a husband. some wonder how it works...how could that many members of a family work together? well. it just works. it just does. i cannot imagine enjoying or excelling at anything else. quite frankly, the job saved my life 10 years ago. anyway - - i am just realizing that i never really think about much other than work because i feel so passionately about it, it is our family's livelihood, and (what i am really trying to say) - we are a newly-wed couple that is together literally 24 hours a day. matt decompresses with painting and studio recording sessions and discovery channel marathons. i should go to the gym, but for now, i think i need a blog to un-frazzle. OTHER THAN JEANS will be the title, and this will be the last time work is mentioned. wow. i already feel better.